“A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take.”
Cardinal Mermillod

I have never in my life been a baby person. Babies are noisy, messy, helpless little creatures without any positive attributes to outweigh the negative. They all look like potatoes to me – and just seeing baby slobber will literally make me gag. Even so, my husband and I eventually decided to try for ONE baby of our own. However, six years went by with no success and through that very long journey I began to realize how badly I really wanted a baby – at the same time I still hoped and prayed that I would like my own baby and be able to tolerate the grossness of babyhood.

I thought God sure had a sense of humor when that first ultrasound in 2020 showed that not only was I pregnant but pregnant with twins! Once over that surprise, I just hoped and prayed that I would like them both. I wanted a daughter so badly that I felt a disconnect with the boy from the start. I worried that I would somehow show favoritism towards my daughter. When they arrived, however, that boy flat out stole my heart. I have a special bond with our sweet son, just like my husband has a special bond with our fiery daughter.

The twins were exclusively breastfed which meant that I was ALWAYS with them – no breaks, ever – and they loved tag teaming so I was quite literally their constant slave. They were just as messy as any baby; in fact, I swear our daughter took (and still takes) great pride in being as disgusting as possible (she takes after her daddy). And I had no issues at all with the grossness of babyhood. These babies became my whole life and I love them with all my heart! God absolutely knows what we need, regardless of what we think we need. Thank God!

I am also relieved to say I did not think my babies looked like potatoes.